Dating

I have decided to go on a dating hiatus. I have so much going on here with my house, my work, and I have tons of friends. My weeks are never without some social event going on, birthday, happy hour or the like.

I feel like if I started dating it would get in the way of what I am trying to accomplish. Seriously, this time next year, I hope to be debt free with the exception of my mortgage.

I kind of feel wrong about really not wanting to date but I am single minded with my goal of becoming a working actor.

I actually went on a couple dates since writing the first above paragraphs. One was a spur of the moment, lets go to dinner and we had a good time, she made me feel at ease and vice verse. The other, too, was an impromptu date. We sat outside, had margaritas in the sun. I never felt like I had to be somebody. We talked about all kinds of stuff. Her night out before, he son and the like. Neither could remember the name of the bar from the previous night. Later, after I got home, I remembered it, text it to her and got nothing.

I didn't worry about that. The following Tuesday, I text some sarcastic remark to her about a FB post. No response. We chatted about a week later and I get a "you are so awesome" response from her. Me, I was realizing she is a go-getter and stops at nothing to get what she wants. It was easy to see, as she is bright and works very hard, values the separation of work and social life.

I finally gave up as I sent her an email to set up lunch and never even got a "no thanks response".

That is the reason why I do not date anymore. It's not worth it. I put fort the effort, wasn't clingy guy and yet I get the same result.

Anyway, just sad that no matter what I try I get the same result.